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At the End of Myself

Posted in Faith, Walking with God, WONDER, tagged #attheendofmyself, #faith, #godresiststheproud, #neveralone, #theendofme, #trustingod on October 30, 2020| 2 Comments »

I have nothing left. I am just at the end of my rope … at the end of me.

Those were my words, my prayer, in the midst of a time of struggle, a time where I didn’t have the answer, the solution, the ‘fix’ for the problem.

As I spoke the words, at the end of me, an odd sense of relief was felt from within out. It was as if my verbal confession freed me from invisible, self administered chains. It was as if this was the most wise next step.

Baffled, that this peaceful feeling could accompany the equivalent of waving the white flag in defeat, I then remembered to whom I was praying.

“God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.”
1 Peter 5:5b

Pride … such a human disease of pandemic proportions! And I am not always so quick to admit that I have been infected. I think I need to do all the fixing, the solving, have all the answers. Then, along comes reality and my pride takes a hit … reminding me that there is a higher power, a greater one, who has a plan and purpose that can come of the chaos in my life … and he doesn’t need my efforts, so much as my obedience, my reliance on him.

“Coming to the END of MYSELF and all SELF effort…seems to be the very point that God steps in and shows HIMSELF to be more than ENOUGH.”
John Paul Warren

That peace that accompanied my forfeit … that was God, as I submitted my ‘power’ to him. I still was worried, I still had concerns and I still had more questions than answers, but I had been reminded that I was not alone, that I did not have to do anything … except trust, stay close to him.

“God blesses those who realize their need for him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is given to them.“
Matthew 5:2-3

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good ol’ days

Posted in GOD, life, WONDER, tagged #giveitup, #goodoldays, #holdloosly, #trustingod on March 30, 2017| Leave a Comment »

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“It’s not always been this way”

I guess that sort of comment is commonplace for someone my age … and I kinda hate that.

I hate that I now have times when I am comparing the present to the past. I hate that when I do, I am often referring to the past as the good ol’ days.

But what was at the crux of my good ol’ days comment is that I was holding onto something too tightly.

I think we all do that, with different things, beliefs, people or experiences that we love. We love it/them so much, we make it of such value that we become unwilling to let it go. Our love for that thing becomes greater than our love for and trust in Christ.

The very first of the Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:3) tells us,

“You are to have no other gods besides me.”

For some it is their job, or their expectations, or their home, or even their religion ahead of Christ.

I have always felt that it is people who we most often put first. Our spouse our parents, but even more so, our children who get placed high above all else.

This recent good ol’ days comment made me realize that it was my own pride that prevented me from trusting in God to work out the situation. If I were to be honest, I would have to say part of my problem is I’m not always trusting that Jesus will do what needs to be done, without some cost to … me.

You see, my pride … it tends to be a bit of security blanket for me, and what would protect me if I gave it up to Him?

Ya, I know, HE will and does protect me. HE has a view of how this current situation will resolve, and HE is trustworthy.

The past, present and future are in his hands … imagine what he might have for me, for us, if we would be willing to hand over what we hold so tightly.

“The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it.”
1 Thessalonians 5:24

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