itsawonderfilledlife

 I wonder when it begins?

You know the it I am referring to?

looking ahead, thinking about tomorrow, dreaming of the start of school, the new job, the vacation, the completion of school, the wedding, the birth of the baby, the child’s graduation, the child moving out …

I expect it is something hard wired into our human minds, and it is not all bad, as we need to look ahead, to dream, to plan, to stretch beyond our present.

I am gifted, even fueled, by looking ahead.

I countdown to events, breaks, vacations, even possible snow days!

This summer break, I have had the joy of a few days away, the satisfaction of furniture refinishing to satisfy my creative side, the achievement of helping hubby to mend a septic problem, and friends to share our time, our place and our table with. These have all been good things … things that bring me joy.

I have not counted the number of weeks left before work recommences, nor the days until hubby begins his next vacation (though, I am sure he has counted). I have not been eager to get my furniture sold, nor have I started the healthier eating summer goals that I had planned. Heck, I have barely even sat down to write!

I have stayed up late, and slept beyond hubby (this never happens). I have sat and chatted with a daughter, with no goal in mind, other than to spend time together. I have bought veggie plants with another, and we are enjoying their growth, despite the fact that they are in the same containers we purchased in which we purchased. I have taken my son shopping for clothes and we brought home nothing more than soft drinks. I have sat and watched documentaries with hubby.

I have sat … and that’s all I have done.

no goals, no tomorrows

just today, now.

Psalm 90:14 spoke to my heart the other day,

“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love,
that we may sing for joy
and be glad all our days.”

I’m loving today, I’m living today, and all it takes is breathing … and that’s enough.