Ever been mad? Like so upset and angered that your heart was beating so violently that you could feel your entire body vibrate?
My grandmother, in times like that, would have said that she was so angry she could spit.
We have all had such an experience of emotion. We have all been, at some point, angry enough to spit.
There was such a time that is still restlessly settled in my mind. I remember the feeling that my heart might just beat right out of my chest. I remember the pounding of emotion and blood flow in my head. I remember the combination of anger and sadness and despair and defeat.
I remember the words of the text that sent me reeling … words that communicated
one step forward, two (dozen) steps back.
History invades the present, darkness falls on rising sun, temporarily eclipsing the light.
The inky intent of sinful man is always to blot out the light.
I was searching, seeking for light … as if crawling in desperation for understanding of the whys, for hope to come from the shadows.
what more can he say,
than to you he hath said,
to you who for refuge,
to Jesus have fled
The words stopped my obsessing, my perseverating over the ache in my gut, my heart. What song were those words from? Why did it enter my conscious?
How Firm a Foundation … words penned over two hundred and thirty years ago … words and a message with lasting power. As I read them I was reminded that my physical and emotional shaking were not more than skin deep … for my foundation is deeper still, firm in the care of my Savior.
Then, the words of the prophet Nahum (1:7):
“The Lord is good, He is a fortress in time of distress, and He protects those who seek refuge in him.”
Reminders of my firm foundation, the fortress around me, the prayers of those who are faithful …
the anger fading with the rising light of Christ’s love and promise.
Not today Satan.
“That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.”
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