Morning.
We sit, feet touching, naturally, intentionally, on the shared stool.
Laptops on our respective knees … catching up on the happenings around the world, while we had slept.
The beast participating in nap number one, after the hard work of eating and taking her morning venture into the great outdoors.
Silence …
except the occasional noises made when sipping our hot, fresh brewed drink.
We awaken …
together.
“It’s so quiet,” he says to me, with a childlike look of total joy.
I smile, sharing this moment, this joy, with him.
This is the beginning.
The beginning of a new day, the beginning of fresh choices.
“To be, or not to be”
That is the question.
When Hamlet asked that question he was asking the question of all humanity, though we do not all ask it out loud. The question he (we) asks is:
do we choose to keep living this life of heartache, of pain, of rejection?
or, do we lay down, and allow the eternal, gentle sleep and dreams of forever to take us away?
But, that peaceful sleep … it is eternal. There is no return, no turning back, no escape clause.
And so, we choose to continue to inhale and exhale.
Choosing to be …
This is not the easy choosing, not the simple choosing, not thoughtless choosing, not the choosing of that which comes with guarantees.
But, it is good.
Choosing to be …
It is the choosing to be intentional, to try, to start fresh … to love
… from morning until night …
together
choosing oneness over separation,
with no guarantees that it will be reciprocated, returned,
with no guarantees that you will be loved back.
Ah,
but if you are …
Lights off, alarms set, beast guarding the bedroom door.
Body fatigued, mind emptied, eyes heavy …
We crawl into, fall into … our bed.
Bodies meeting in the middle,
arms swaddling each other,
prayers spoke
endearments shared.
This is the stuff of real … battered and bruised, damaged and dirty, kissed and made up …
dreams.
The dreams that are born out of living, and choosing to be.
“I call heaven and earth to witness against you today,
that I have set before you life and death,
blessing and curse.
Therefore choose life,
that you and your offspring may live,
loving the Lord your God,
obeying his voice and holding fast to him,
for he is your life and length of days,
that you may dwell in the land that the Lord swore to your fathers,
to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.
Deuteronomy 30:19
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